Blinded fear

2009-09-12T03:29:00.002+08:00

I moved to onsugar.

Relink me @ http://samanthaworld.onsugar.com/

I have lost my links. Kindly leave me ur link by commenting . =)

Thank you! ^^

2009-09-02T22:33:00.000+08:00

I am blogging at the moment.

If only blogger doesnt have so much problems.
I can't change fonts, upload images etc.

Not dat i dont want to blog.
But Blogger is in a screwed up state,
feeling me with no mood to blog about anything.
May consider switching to onSugar or lifejournal.
which is better? I need some opinions =))

meanwhile, i make do with blogger.

Nites,everyone!
samantha

2009-08-07T23:09:00.000+08:00

I decided to revive my blog again, making it an effort
to blog everyday. It's not dat i do not want to blog.
It's just that school is the same everyday and i feel no point
repeating what i did in school everyday.
But i am happier nowadays. Some events happening making me happier.
and I dont want to flood my blog with emo posts =))

Main exams are like three weeks away. I am goin to enjoy first.
Next week i gonna take some time to unwind.
Movie marathon, study plan and gyms etc.

Did i mentioned how lucky i was??
I won a free 2gb orange sony mp3 player in a lucky draw yesterday xDDDD
*grins
I am going to stuff all my songs inside and flood it to the max LOLs.

P.S: how come i cant post any fotos!!! T.T

Anyways,_______, i am going to break your pacman high score. xD

2009-07-25T00:53:00.003+08:00

I have been feeling upset.

Things doesn't seem to go right this week.
Firstly, relationship has met some problems.
Secondly, i have been thinking alot and getting depressed.
and my studies are being affected.
Thirdly, 3 tests this friday at one go.

My mood is rather down, but i guess i hided it well.

Friday is here and this marks the beginning of weekends.
Met the gals and went to T3 to dine in at popeye.
Everytime i am feeling down, going out with the gals always
enable me to brighten up. short term .
Everyting feels right when going out wit the right people. =))
Laughing, joking and playing together.
Nothing is better than the girls.

Going out to study with them tomorrow.
I have to do complete my tutorials and revise my quiz tmr.

I am in a state of dilemma and what am i doing?

Feelings of insecure has took over.

2009-07-19T20:22:00.004+08:00

160 cm. Let me grow.

I went to aunty jeanette house to visit her today.
It's been ages since i visited her.
But when i saw her, i almost could not recognise her.
She lost 10 kg from chemotherapy and radiotherapy.
lost quite a lot of hair and half of her body is numb.
She has no strength to walk and could not hear properly.
Aunty jeanette contracted cancer and was stage 4,
the cancer cells at the brain.

I am very sad at what can illness do to people.
Aren't nice people supposed to enjoy their life.
A nice lady like her should not be suffering like that.
Life is unfair.
So guys, always love yourself and treasure everything.
*I sound like a naggy grandma =.=

On the trip there and back,
i thought about a lot of things.
I have decided to stay happy.

On another point,
i decided to hit the gym on every Mons.
and swimming on alternate mondays.
Skipping everyday and save money for 2pm xD

2009-07-19T02:27:00.004+08:00

2pm fan meeting!!!!

My eyeslids are so heavy, yet i am so reluctant to sleep.
Did many things today. let me see what i done today.

9-1pm
Went for work. Serene says i am slow.
She seems to pick on every small details on everyone.
I had put in all my effort to be as quick as possible,
but every week she has something to say.
OMG! feel so.......

1pm-3pm
Went to yingjie hse to meet vien and peijuan.
Before that, went to mac to da bao my lunch. Mac chicken.
Scary larhs,i am so afraid of yj dogs. They were rushing towards me. x.x
It's like 5 dogs at one time lols. but i am proud of myself, so brave to enter xDDDDDD
Yj cooked some korean dishes and we ate together.

4-7pm
Bus-ed to century to watch harry potter. Such a disappointment.
I expected it to be better. hope part 2 is nicer =)
Vien and me were talking out of boreness in cinema haha.

7-1am plus
met dear for diner and bus-ed home.
watched 2 horror movies.

Such a fruitfulll day yea? *smiless xDD

I wan to go to 2pm fan meeting!

2009-07-17T21:25:00.006+08:00

It's friday again! which means weekends are here!
and i miss the girls badly T.T

I have gotten back my obc quiz today.
Passed, but results was not ideal.
this shows that i have to work harder.
Okay,enuff about school stuffs! its time to relax.
Hahas.

CSAS presentation is 3 days away!
Feeling nervous,nervous and nervous.

You know what? Sometimes i just wanted to feel loved.
Things have changed & it's not de same anymore =((

2009-07-16T22:32:00.003+08:00

I am seriously tireddddddddddddd

An incident happened to me in school during break time.
I almost became blind.

Break time,
We had eaten our lunch and was walking towards library,
whr dere is some events held today.
This is the time when something happened.
While walking,qi yin was holding on to a leaflet.
Suddenly,i felt an sharp item poking into my eye.
I turned to see qi yin's leaflet(sharp corner),
instantly coming towards me.
For a moment, there was a sharp pain and i tot i was blind x.x
But it happened to be my contact lens had dropped.
and i had to go hme to wear it back as the solution was not wit me.
Did about 1 hr of excercise. Back and forth fr my hse four times.
Qi yin and i skipped hap lectures just for the lens. CRAZZEE!

Yesterday, i went for AC rock climbing.
but i did not try it out as i was not feeling well.
i really envy those who can make it up there,
their muscles and strong hands.
If only i have half of theirs,
but simply it jus have to be that i am so small size.
without chances of growing tall and fat T.T
No matter wad i do. CRAP!

i am feeling very nervous and at the same time down for csas presentation.
Afraid that i would not be able to do well.
It's making me feel really down.

I have set my mind to enter the university xDDDDDDD
My mind is set.

2009-07-10T16:24:00.004+08:00

I am in sch sci lab trying to memorise PIPC,
and i am going nuts soon. x.x
Nothing is going into my brain............
and i am having a flu. Feel so awful. I jus hope i'll be able to pass.
HAHAs xDDDDD

Shall update later on =))

Excited about celebrating vien's bday later!

Byes everyone! xDDD

2009-07-09T23:51:00.003+08:00

It's been weeks since i blogged.
My blog have been very dead recently.
But i am back again! xDDDDDDDD

School had been rather stressful.
The setbacks are making me feel demoralised.
Screwing up my presentation and failing tests.
Seriously wrong.
I simply have to set my piorities right.

But i have decided to work even harder.
Okay,enough about school. =))

i lost $27 today and my heart is bleeding.
My items from blogshop was not received and lost in mail.
I should have ordered registered mail instead.

-i am heartbroken about my money T.T
-sorry for the slip slop post.

Photo time!

2009-06-24T23:53:00.006+08:00

Couples are meant to be chained together-

Okay,by the way, this is the final product of my bracelet.

Nice right, i noe. Dont nid say. my first product.

Abit bu yao lian haahs.

Today, we had sfp labs. We did experimenting with eggs.

Hard meringues,soft meringues,soft/hard peaks etc.

i learnt to use the electronic egg beater xDDDD

pictures of what we did today!

egg white foam-Soft peak
eggs!
Soft meringue
breadcrumbed fish
Soft meringue-before ovening.

After lab,we had 4hrs break.

Lunched and went to library to chit chat.

I gained alot of knowledges toking to ivy and gals.

hahas

nites!

2009-06-23T23:38:00.007+08:00

i am lazy to blog about my previous days events.
So, i shalll just cont'd from today. Hahas

Second day of school today. School starts at 10am.
OBC lecture starts.....and something happened!
Qi yin,yu kun and I got chased out of the lecture room!!!!!!!!
Lecture had not even started and everybody was talking.
Suddenly,the lecturer says " the three of you,out of the room".
"Come back 10 mins later".
The three of us was looking around to see if he was calling us.
How in the hell can he catch us when others were talking too.
Unfair sia,So damn embarrassing lahs.
So,out we went and back in 10 mins time.
Eyes were like staring at us when we walked out and in.

Our conversation (in chinese)
Yukun: So after lecture whr u all went ytd?
Me: We went to far east.
Yukun: Buy what?
Me: Nothing. Only ivy bought.
Qiyin: actually i abit regrettted going.
Me: mm nor mm nor.
Lecturer: Out! Do the necessary den come bak.
Not even 1 min!!!!! and we got chased out.
So,out we went and back in 10 mins time.

AHHHHHHH!!! first time in my life T.T

After that, we went to sugar loaf to eat.
Shall upload the fotos some other time xDDDDD

my items have arrived!
my bracelet is done! =))
I did OBC revision today (proud)
I did something for my dear for 4th mth ^^

Tasty deserts! xD

Ivy's self made desert

fruit pie

cream puffs

apple crumble

strawberry's dunno wat

My tasty clam spegetti

2009-06-19T13:50:00.005+08:00

Actually wanted to go chinatown to buy materials wit qiyin,

for making our necklaces and bracelets.

Change of plans to saturday.

i wanted to find Dear out, but i tink he is sleeping x.x

dunno if he is sleeping.

Cant bear to wake him up hahas. let him sleep ba xDD

It's like i am awake in the day and he's sleeping in de day.

he sleeps in de day and awakes in the nite.

Dear, u Like nite owl lors O.O

He's gonna kill me if he sees this.

I wonder how much wil we see each other when school reopens?

1day? 2day?

AND it's.............. SIX days to 4TH mth anniversary!!!!!!

Thinking back, it's going to be 4 mths we had been together hahas.

Kay lahs,i am getting a bit sentimental ><

Off to lunch and BOF.

我们还是像以前那样吗？~

2009-06-19T13:29:00.004+08:00

CDs x.x

freaking angry lahs.
I woke up 9.45m in the morning for CDs,
thinking i can go to sleep after submitting.
Retry,refresh and try again...
in a half sleepy mode.
it took me til 12 plus before i could log in.
I was like.......finally xD
Conclusion, tp web is super laggggggggggyy.

Anyways,i chose jap,french,marketing,problem solving,economics.

2009-06-18T23:20:00.002+08:00

Lee min ho is loved <33

Samantha is not feeling very well =((

Went out wif the girls today!
Went to watch ghost of girlfriend past xD
I am tired today to write more lols.
Rushing off to BOF
*grins

My stuffs are arriving soon ;)

Photos of day camp!
We are the plastickcians~ <33>

2009-06-18T05:05:00.004+08:00

Nw is 5:06 am in the morning,

and i am watching BOF ep16.

I love LEE MIN HO!

He makes my heart melts when he smiles xDDD

AND makes my heart beat faster ^^

Sunshine boooyyyyy~~~~

2009-06-14T22:20:00.002+08:00

Day out with VIVIEN at far east!

It's an enjoyable day out with her,as always. =))
Since long time ago when i go out wit her,lols.
Day out wit best friend is always the best.
chatting,shopping and laughing together!
It's like we had endless things to talk abt.

Bus-ed to far east,bought si lin's chicken.
and begin hunting for her dress and tops.
I was being tempted by eveeeeerything!
high waist skirts/shorts,shirts,necklace etc.
but i had only $10 wit me =.=
nvm,i am going shop hunt nxt round i get my pay.
She bought a beautiful top,couldnt find her dress,
so went bugis junction but din buy anything too.
Instead,we went for neoprints. xDDDDDDD

Kays, i am going off to boys over flowers!
It's nice!!!!

-shall upload de neoprints some other time

TALK SHOP EAT, dat's what girls do ^^

2009-06-12T00:53:00.006+08:00

AC day camp- Day 1

Woke up at 10am to prepare to meet Qiyin,weiting and grp for lunch.
Qi yin,jerome and leonard was late.
Head-ed off to kfc to have our lunch,
but ended up having not finish my meal =((
Yueming and yukun had missed out the fun T.T
how i wish dey were here to join the fun wit me,qiyin and de rest.

Off we went to School. we were grp 1! for the first time! xD
Firstly is activities like creating group cheer and flag.
Then nxt is socks game and captain's ball !
Well,today's activities are not as fun.
But i guess it wil be better tomorrow =))
There's wet activities tmr!!!!
I am getting myself wet ;)
Qi yin was a great company and a great friend too!
Without her i would be sooooo looonely =))
thanks!

After end of day 1,i went wit weiting and the rest of grp members to dine.
at long john silver.
To be honest wit myself, ytd was the 1st time i went out wit people i
am familar but stil not yet too familar,except weiting & jerome =))
somemore in a big group of 6.
Nvr done dis in my life,wonder where i got sooo much courage from?
I myself got shocked x.x
I am usually not those who would be those kind to be mixing around. hahas
I am low profile,truthfully ^^
But with weiting and some other people ard,
dey made me feel comfortable wit dem.
So, it is not really dat bad to be wit them xDDDD
They are humourous peoples who made me comfortable to be ard wit.
thou at times nan mian wil get left out abit larhs,
cus zhen me shuo aso different class ma.
but overall feeling is still GREAT! =))
Do i deserve a pat on my shoulder? hahas
Thanks weiting for accompanying me & not making me feel left out!

Watched DRAG ME TO HELL xDD the stupid face keep poping
right in my face to frighten me larhs & the overblast effects.
*faints
and i heard jerome shouted.heh heh i didnt *giggles
phobia of old ladies and hankerchiefs. overall,not a veri scary horror movie,
except the effects. Sad, i wonder if the gals watched movie todae?

-tmr force wei ting and qiyin take foto wit me.heh heh

Byes,tmr starts at 9am x.x

2009-06-11T01:22:00.002+08:00

10/06/09

I am having my mood swings again.
It happens every monthly.
Girls are so troublesome =((((((

But after meeting up with the girls,
they cheered me up. xD
crazy over boys over flowers,
making me want to watch.
It seems ages that i had met them. =(
I hope i can always see them.
But everytime,due to some circumstances,i always
cant make it to see them T.T
I want to meet them and not lose touch with them T.T
Can i? =)
Sometimes i am so afraid x.x
We had an cheery talk today at the playground.
With no distractions,
we were speaking of everything,everything in the world we could talk.
It is always the best when friends get together to have a talk.
It's always nice to sit around and chat wit friends whom u click with.
It is ages since i had a talk with them.
makes me want to go bak to secondary school.
i miss everything,everything and everything back then!!
AND i love them so much!!! ^^

-i noticed i am very very very outdated.
-rustinessss
-i want to go out with them again!
-no pictures this time,but yet happiness in my heart ;)

nites!
tomorrow is AC's day camp. woots!~

2009-06-11T00:34:00.011+08:00

08/06/09

Today is Kbox session with clique!
I bus-ed to puggol my ownself and
train-ed to serangoon to meet up wit qi yin n yueming.
to get our hair done up ay qi yin hse =))
I am going to curl my hair !
Sorry,i was late for 10mins.

My hair! xD
Not used to my new hair x,x
Credits to qi yin

Trained to somerset to meet beatrice and ivy.
Went to hongkong cafe to eat our lunch.

Tou hua tub for 5 person!
Special macau noodle xD
My porked ribs baked pasta xDDD $9.90

Recommend people to go try!
Afterwhich,neoprint session!

Kbox session!

Sang lots and even did make up sessions =.=

Yue ming and ivy!

Me and yue ming

Our clique!

2009-06-07T02:10:00.002+08:00

Yesterday
06/06/09

Today is the first day of term break.
Actually intended to stay home after work at kumon.
Very tired. Instead, i went off wit my mum to novena.
Accompanied her to her briefing for survey,
while i head-ed to novena square to shop while waiting.
Long wait. I ate alone and i find the food doesn't taste as nice. T.T
We train-ed to orchard and went far east.

To be honest with u, part of reason i went is cause of shopping.
I had gotten my pay today and i wanted to spend all dis mth.
Know why? cause my pay is super pathetic. x.x
Mum and i shopped till 8plus at nite,hahas.
I am sooooo delighted today!
I bought: 2 dresses,2pairs of shoes,shorts and a belt. xDDD
Mum says want to pay,but i say it's ok. Sounds cool rite? hahas
cus paying wit ur money has more satisfaction,
plus it reduces the burden of family =))))))
Samantha, i am proud of u ^^
k la,abit wrong eh,my last sentence.
Saying proud of myself lols.

I am looking forward to next wk.
More and more events coming up! =)

Note: got to clear my closet tomorrow ;))

-looking forward to kbox outing with clique and the gals!
-My belt is too loose even thou de belt is considered elastic =.=
-I love everyting i bought.
-I saw the high heels hinting me to buy today ><
-I wan buy mooooree!
-Want my hair to grow ^^
-need people to care for me.
-shopping makes me clear my mind

Nites!

2009-06-07T01:06:00.011+08:00

Did not have time to blog yesterday night.
So i shall start with yesterday's happenings.

05/06/09
It was the last day of tedious term tests and it's time to relax! xD
We actually planned to go amk hub to shop and buy.
but in the end we did not go amk as
i noticed i had not gotten my pay.
Afterwhich, head-ed to flavours to have lunch.
Yueming,qi yin and i wwere taking fotos
while waiting for beatrice to end briefing.
After her briefing end, we 4 of us bus-ed to tamp interchg.
decided to just shop around as we had no events on.

I was damn pissed off, fed up,and angry lahs.
We met one uncle(claiming to be businessman),mid 50s
suddenly jumping out of nowhere & approaching us,
saying a string of words which i could not make out at all.
Lastly, asking us to buy a pen which cost 2dollar,
when the pen seems to be from value dollar lik 5 for $2 kind.
I could make out dat he say what help exconvicts,
and soem business thing,
which makes it so contradicting.
And u noe what he say when yue ming says we 4 share buy one?
He says CANNOT! Whr got like dis one?
What makes me even fed up is,
when qiyin says want to share with me,
that uncle says " eeyer,so mao(stingy)" O.O
His attitude is so much difference when beatrice buy 2,
and yue ming didnt.
I tink that he may be some kind of zha pian ji tuan.
in actual fact,i saw him before last time.
Vien and i bought from him.
& i am foolish to be tricked 2nd time. =((((
I shouldnt have bought from him in the first place.
Imagine that he can actually make alot of profits.
1 pen 25cent,add together many!
AHHH! angry!ask myself not to angry,
but the sight of the pen makes my blood boil.
Well,I definately will donate if its charitable,but him, NO.
He aims at teens like us,so if u see him in interchg,dun buy.
Many teens had fallen into his hands.
He makes people be frighten and force dem buy.

Afterthat,we went shopping at TM1and tm.
After that,went for lunch at yoshi.
We spent 2-3hrs toking abt stuffs,ghost etc etc
and time flies fast.

Potato mixed set
Qiyin caught eating ^^
Yue ming! veri funny lols
Models of the year
Yue ming,model of year
This is not a charitable organisation.

$2 pen =)))))))

2009-06-04T12:13:00.008+08:00

GSS is here and sales are everywhere!

I had my MST (maths and statistics) paper today.
and went breakfast with clique at st 81.
Both beatrice and ivy are emo-ing =((
Cheer up ivy!
Cheer up beatrice!
Mst,the first paper i m confident of passing xD
think i am going to flung the rest of the papers.
this mid sem test takes 35% of the total mark,and i am failing ;(
It's the second last day of mid sem test today =))
and off i go with my term break. HAHAHAHA!
ONE MORE DAY!

GSS is here,sales are everywhereeeee!!!!
I am saving up to buyyyyyyy.
but no matter how i save,it doesnt seem enough. T.T
Things i want to buy for GSS (with my pay and savings) :
-bag pack
-facial wash
-eye and makeup remover
-white eyeliner
-BB cream
-Skirt
-cardigan
-apparels X3
-dress
-necklace
-High heels
-styling cream for hair

Obviously not enuff money >.<
I am not goin buy at one go.
highlighted is what i want to buy wi my pay ^^

2009-06-01T23:35:00.007+08:00

I cut straight bangs for my fringe today!! xD

01/06/09, the first day of my term test.
HAP (human autonomy and physiology),
and CSAS (communication skills for AS).
Let's start with Hap.
I woke up at around 6am to mug for hap,
But when i first received the paper,
the first thing i did was blank out.
All i had studied during dawn simply could not be remembered.
Luckily,all the information came back after awhile.
I dun wish for more, a pass is good enuff.

Same for CSAS.
I seem to go bak to the period when i was having o levels hahas.
underlineing the mistakes and
filling in the blanks.
Flunged this paper.

I have cut straight bangs! =)))))))
It's something i really wanted to try but dared not ><
i sorta tink it looks weird, but no regrets ^^
It just have to grow abit longer. My head looks smaller again.
I will take some pictures of my hair sometime when i free =)

Meanwhile,enjoy the video i found for straight bangs xD

2009-05-31T14:01:00.003+08:00

It's 2.01pm in the afternoon.
I have been sitting on my chair,from 12.30,
in front of the com,
saying i want to study.

BUT I HAVE NOT STARTED ANYTHING =.=

Procastination bug is acting up again.
Cannot cannot cannot.
I need some motivations.
Hmm, i know.
Study hard> get good grades > enter university

>>>and you can become like her.

get everything you want.
The clothes u want and become a beatiful woman =))

Okay, i can study now. =)))

and dress up gorgeously. ^^

2009-05-29T23:13:00.015+08:00

It's a exhaustive day at school today, from 9-6pm.
Went to school at 8am today to ask yukun to teach me OBC.
I guess i sort of understand some of OBC, but not all.
I have been just scraping through all the tests with a mere PASS.
Demoralising to see my marks with a JUST PASS. AWW!
After which, we had obc tutorials,SFP,HAP and PIPC.
I simply hated Fridays. Had all subjects which made my bag super heavy.
Makes me even shorter x.x
During Pipc lectures,Ivy's dog sat beside ivy.
Well, not direct beside, but a few seats away.
Ivy went all excited.
She's so sad that she wont be able to see him nxt 3wks.
Cheer ups Ivy! i think you still stand a great chance.

After school, Yue ming and I went to Tm X-craft to get our ear pierced =))
We were accompanied by Ivy,qi yin and beatrice.
This is our first clique outing!!!!!!
Too bad yukun wasn't here.
I just noticed my clique was huge. 8 people.
I finally got my second ear hole pierced! Been waiting sooooooo long xD
Omg,once i entered, i could feel my heart beating even faster lahs.
Beatrice,Qiyin and Ivy encouraged me not to be afraid.
Thanks Beatrice for holding on to my hand when i am afraid. ^^
Simply felt happy after piercing my ear.
Thank you!

After which,
we went to pasta mania for diner and took many fotos at century toilet.
We spent one hour in the toilet without even noticing. =.=
Den accompanied Ivy to T1 as she wanted to go topshop.
Today,we found out that ivy's pocket money is at least 1000 plus per mth.
Plus rental and food.
No wonder she can buy what she wants without a thought.
Sorta envy but i am still contented.
I still have to save in order to get what i want.
I want to be sent overseas to studdyy!!

-My ear is starting to hurt.
-I have place my orders =))
-I need to mugg for term test.
-I bought a nail polish^^

Here u go,the photos xDD

Me and yue ming!
Qiyin,Yueming,beatrice,ivy

Sexy ivy~
Trying to follow fei lun hai pose xD
Beatrice and me

2009-05-26T23:32:00.005+08:00

Forget and move on =))

I seem to be still in the day cycle scene.
Cant forget things that happened that day.
Its time to move on to focus on studies.
Not other matters x.x

After school I went to work at kumon tuition centre to teach small kids.
I think i am starting to get the hang of the system there.
I sort of think that the kids are getting cutier and cutier.
Feel like pinching their cheeks soo much.
I seem like bian tai,but their cheeks seems nice to pinch hahas.

Haven order my items from the blog.
Will do it tomorrow.
Sians,there wont be adventure clubs till 3weeks ltr,
which is the night cycle.
I am sorta looking forward to trainings.
Farewell, adventure club,till 3 wks later. T.T

Team mates for day cycling!

2009-05-26T00:29:00.002+08:00

Stresss-ed

Term tests are round the corner and i have not started revision.
Today, I have been doing csas research presentation.
It is really killing me.
I hated CSAS,why do we have to do it?
It's just some idiot presentation and communication skills.
CSAS took up most of my time to revise & it's not that impt at all.
What crapp! @#$%
Awww......
12 plus and finally i am completed.

Term tests are starting next week!
Stressed ><
Regretted being in science school.
Well,actually is all about managing your time well.
Tired, nites everyone!

-I noticed that i actually have so many mosquito bites =.=
-my face is different tone from my arms and legs.
-I am going to buy a planner for myself.

2009-05-23T21:54:00.006+08:00

Day cycling at palau ubin

Big day!
Today is big day. My actual 1st experience cycling at pulau ubin.
I had not been cycling in there before.

8-9am
Yueming,qi yin and i met our grp members at tamp interchg mac.
After which,we bus-ed to changi village jetty.
Boarded our bum boat.

10-11am
Boat-ed to pulau ubin in 20mins.
Administrations and choosing of bikes.
Plus waiting for dunno wat before starting.
Meanwhile,we took fotos.

Adventure time!
At first, i could not control my bike. Since ages since i rode a bike.
But eventually, i took control of it.
Pulau ubin has a lot of mosquitoes, Upslopes,downslopes,stones and bugs!
Once i arrived at there,i fed de mosquitoes blood.
It was sooo hard to go up the slope x.x
But once it goes down, it is seriously fun.
Well, accidents do happen too.
We had 3 casualties. One flew off the bike. Scary larhs.

After dat,we reached the lake.
Photo of the lake!

I was tinking actually to go for nite cycling.
But i guess not,it was really dangerous to go at nite.

I am having muscle aches all over.
I have became more tan! so glad.

Okays, I am really tired.
I tink i wil have muscle aches all over tmr.
My legs are numb and it really hurts =((

Goodnites and sweet dreams! Worn out.

Sky at pulau ubin
Our bikes =))

Me and yue ming

Photos of others wil be uploaded nxt time .

2009-05-21T22:58:00.004+08:00

Craps. I erased my whole blog entry and i have to redo it all again.

Finally, there is a day when i do not really feel so tired.
but of course,i am still drained out.
Today, i have only two hrs of lecture.
If it isnt for ac training(adventure club),i maybe would pon.
Okay,maybe not. I will feel bad and guilty.
After lecture, Yueming,yukun,qi yin and me went to flavours to grab a bite.

Adventure time!
We went to our training after eating.
Today's training is fun.
DO YOU KNOW WHY?

We had outdoor cooking.
We were asked to bring our forks and spoons and $4.
After the briefing, we were asked to split into our grps when we dunno which.
cus we din went last wk.
However, we joined grp 7.
We cooked tang yuan and spegetti(curry gravy)
Weird lahs,i din try before dis flavour.
But surprisingly,it tastes delicious.
Dont be too happy yet.
We made tang yuans,not spegetti.
The tangyuans turn out to be not bad too,with the help of sweet powder.
We broke ourself into two grps and we did tang yuans.
After we cooked, we ate our stuffs.
Sense of satisfaction ^^

I got a shock today. A guy asked me for my number x.x
at de end of training.
We saw chocolate today too!

Recipe for our tangyuans!

1) Sprinkle water onto dough in moderation.
2) Knead dough well.
3) Add colouring and mix well. Roll into ball and throw into water.
4) Turn off fire when tang yuan float.

There, it is done! so proud of it.

AND, I am going for cycling at pulau ubin dis sat! Woots~

2009-05-20T22:54:00.002+08:00

I am feeling downright moody
downright pestimistic
downright stress
downright useless
downright sians
downright sad
downright unlucky.

I wan to cheer up,and need someone to cheer me up.

But i tink i will be alright in awhile. Simply mood swings.

~ I need a shoulder to lean on~

2009-05-20T22:22:00.004+08:00

Down on luck (X3)

Tired,as usual,
is the only thing i can say.
Seems like i am tired everyday.hahas

P.S I just saw something. My two tortoises are trying to kill each other =.=
Random LOLS

Back to topic, I think i had side track from my PIPC.
I had 3 hrs of lab of PIPC,thoughout i am totally blur abt instructions.
I din know how to do my post lab. Totally crap!
Today,evania and i almost got accused of breaking apparatus,
When we are totally innocent plsssss.
So inconsiderate of others who broke it to put it back and frame us x.x
Lucky we dont have to pay.
Or else i go after dat person.

Okay,later on i am going to start studying on maths and stats.
We learnt basic Amaths in maths and stats today.
Kinda happy as i had alr learnt.

I am kinda happy as tomorrow's lessons start from 4-6pm.
AND......
There's adventure club tomorrow!
Which means.......
We can see Chocolate(nickname as he is dark)!~ YAYS.
Haven seen him dis week so far.
But the main purpose is there is field cooking tomorrow. =))

Oh my gosh! i actually intended to order my items today, and noe wad?
PREORDER CLOSED when it stated 23th may. Sian diao lars.
I have to wait for the next preorder.

My lips are cracked. So painful. T.T

I dont feel like revising my work.

2009-05-18T23:38:00.008+08:00

Lost and regained =))

I almost lost my phone today.
Luckily the person who found it was kind enuff,
to return me.
I guess I was really lucky.
After today,i tink i will learn my lesson and be more alert.
Recently, I have been forgetting things =((
This is the second time i lost and regained possession of phone dis mth.
I tink it must be all the brain cells i have wass use up.
Yups,it must be.Not because i have became older ^^
If i really lost my phone today,
I guess its going to be really troublesome. >< I wan to go out wif the girls tmrrrrr!
But sadly,i have to work.
It seems so long time since i saw them x.x
Tomorrow,I have a OBC quiz & maths stats on fri.
I only studied obc halfway and my brain juice were used up.
I really tink science is not my forte.
Cant believe i am actually in sci sch when my sci alwaes got F9 =.=
Hmm, i wonder if i can pass?

THINK POSITIVE!SAMANTHA!

But everytime i am stressed up, there is someting i love to do, which cheers me up hahas.
I found a video on how to DIY on cutting ur hair ^^
It saves money,which serves the main purpose. LOLS.

2009-05-17T19:14:00.008+08:00

Procastinat~ed

I hate myself when i procastinate,
and I had done it again and again.
Gosh,procastinating and self discipline is the root of my failure.
Yet,i have no idea what i can do about it.
I have to do some actions to it. Hmm,yeah..it should help.

I actually have plans todae,whiich is to go out today wif the gals.
In the end,i ended up dead in my bed feeling super exhausted.
So, i din went out.
I woke up at 2 plus and did alittle work and procastinat-ed .
I hate it when i procastinate and have no self discipline.
Play-ed a game introduced by dear and got stuck at a stage. Hahas.
I tink i am going to place my orders soon!
Waiting forward to the arrivals of my products. Woots~

Today i watched a video on youtube. It teaches us how to draw our eyeliners.
But its for newbies. I cant manage to find the video.
I will post it up if i manage to find it. ^^

Craving for chocolates deeply. =((
Craving for a shopping spreee!
Craving to grow taller.
Craving for blogshopping.

Pictures for today!

2009-05-14T19:31:00.004+08:00

NRWZD

“Love of beauty is Taste.The creation of beauty is Art.”

i am exhausted.
My eyes can close any moment.
Today is the 3rd day i am constantly been sleeping for 4hrs.
My eyebags are really showing!
Still, i have to mugg for HAP ltr.

I have alr taken 2 quizzes and i have totalli no confidence of passing
I just hope a pass for all my quizzes this time.
BUT, I am going to study real hard for other subsequent tests.
I am going to flung my HAP quiz tmr. T.T I haven started studying yet.
Today i had lab sections again. I am beginning to hate weds,thurs and fri.
why??

Weds-6 hrs of lab is enuff to kill my brain cells.
Thurs-Tutorials plus labs.
Fri- 10 to 6pm. I hate dis the most.

Anyways, I have decided to preorder beauty products from NRWZD web.Lots & lots of variety of beauty products for gals,from top to bottom.
Hair,nails,mask,face,makeup products ,slimming gels etc.
I shall try out the mask and some items for testing first.
If its effective,i tink its really worth buying larhs.
It sells items that are unique. U will know if you check it out.

I will upload the fotos of the outing other time. =))

Sleep deprived

2009-05-13T21:29:00.001+08:00

SLEEP DEPRIVED!

I had been constantly sleeping for max 3-4 hrs past 2 days,
and its goin to contd for today and tmr,
which makes it 4 days of sleep gone. T.T
What had i been doing when i was not sleeping?
I am mugging for my 3 quizzes this week!
So hardworking rite? I noe i noe =)

This week has started to turn stress.
PLus I dunwan to fail PIPC & HAP.
So,dats the result of studying.
LACK OF SLEEP!
I am feeling so super sleepy rite now.

Time for me to studi again.
I tink i need toothpicks.
My eyes are in this state now =.=
Before studying, I got sth to do.
Shall not say. SHHHS! Secrets ><

Byes for now!

2009-05-10T19:28:00.005+08:00

Happy mother's day!
Cheer up mum and i am sorry.

I had been thinking alot of thing today. This is what is all in my brain.
I had completed my homework. Happy!
I am depressed and down.
How i wish someone would cheer me up.
A little caring gesture from you is enough to make me happy again. :))

Thought 1
I noticed that I had wasted my past 3 wks not accomplishing anyting.
I had failed my life in past 3 wks.I do not want to return to the dreadful past.
And now, I got to put on my best performance from next week.
To accomplish something great in my life & not wasting my life away.
Not only in academic,but also in life. Be it friends,love and family. =))
Self discipline is what i needed.

Good grades is my aim,University is my dream.

Thought 2
I have got to grow taller.(Max my height to the limit)
This is what i thought would work: Skipping on mon,wed,fri.
Swimming on sat.(ytd to the pool was a wasted trip=.=)

Thought 2.1
I got to save lots of money to buy things on blogshop.
I wanna buy clothes from miss queenie(intro by vien)
& NRWZD beauty products!

Thought 3
I got to make my life accomplished.

Mood: Very Depressed.

Love me more and i will love you back a million times more.
SO,do you dare to?

2009-05-09T01:11:00.000+08:00

Well, i dont feel like toking bout school today.
Lessons were all fully packed with all modules.
I couldnt understand pipc and sme of obc lectures.
I studied till 6pm,but i ended at almost 7pm. x.x

Afterwhich, i bus-ed to tamp yoshinoya to meet the girls.
They cheered me up after a heavy loaded day ^^
Outing with them makes me laugh =))
But the time was realli short cus i came late.
I onli spent bout 2hrs with them.
Took lots of fotos with them.Not loading them for tee moment.
After that was home sweet home.

It was another tiring day for me.

I got to cure my puffy eyebags ><

It's 1.43am and i got to catch some beauty slp!

I feel like spending my money like nobody businesss.

I got to clear my wardrobe soon.

Looking forward to Meeting dear tmr. *smiles

Goodnite!

My best friend!^^

2009-05-08T00:19:00.000+08:00

I am tired and drained.
I feel like slping but i still wanna blog first.
So,i am cutting short today.
Today,we had labs sessions again.
Paired up with Yukun, Qi yin and Ivy.
Lab was quite easy today.
Qiyin and i were toking bout taking up makeup courses. ^^
After Lab, we had lectures and so on and so far.
At 6.30, we had adventure club trainings.
Fun but tiring hahas. We played station games.

OMG! i am devastated.
Our eye candy has girlfriend alr.
To be honest, I cannot disagree that he's kinda cute.
Really :))
I tink he knows that our whole group is toking bout him.
Cus my friends,ok la,may be me too,were toking in too loud vol ytd
and i tink he somewhat knows. ^^ Nvm,hahas
His things are not my business. I only care bout the only one. =))

I wanna buy sneakers.
I wanna buy skirts.
I wanna buy tops.
I wanna buy a vest.
I wanna buy a bagpack.
Photos for today!

Evaniaaaaa and me!
Yue ming,evania and me
Me and evania in lab coat ( kinda ugly and funny)

2009-05-06T20:53:00.000+08:00

I don't have to say it again. Today is another tiring day,as usual. But what was different was that, we had lab sections hahas. Not computer lab, but science and food lab ^^

I woke up in the morning anticipating the day's lab, but soon you will find out that it's not as fun as you tink it might be. At 9am,we had food preparation lab. Yueming,Ivy,beatrice,qi yin and I met and went off to food lab first as Yu kun and grace was not here yet. Once we entered the food lab,there was disaster. We had to tie our hair and put a hair net. OMG! We looked auntie.Firstly,we had boring handwashing tactics. Afterwhich,there was briefing on our assignment. Today is basically measurements of water,oil and butter,flour and sugar. It was quite food to do all the measurements but i suppose more fun is nxt wk. We could do baking and cooking! Nobody is going to say i cant cook again.Yays ! So, i was being partnered with joshua and we continued with our measurements. Sometimes i just had to stand there and let him do the work. Its guy's duty! I could still remember measuring the oil. It smells like frenchfries oil dat has been cooked before. It was in the shade of dark yellow.yucks! I liked the sifting of flour too. I din knew that the same amount but using different equipments to measure could be so different. We were all hungry when the lab was over x.x

Still, we could not get to eat! We had to proceed to our nxt lab destination,chem lab. Well, all was the same. We did measuring of equipments like pipette,burette and titration. The lecturer did a demonstration and off we are on our own. I was paired with evania but i was kinda happy. She managed to make me laugh throughout the whole lab session =.= When she was washing the equipment, the hose dropped out. Hence,she decided to put it in the hole there. Then,the water sprays out and she's all wet. lols. Very hilarous.
So hungry... so after lab we went to bistro park. Lab is not as fun as u tink.It might be, but it is tiring wif no food for a total of six hours.YAHH,lab is fun but tiring. x.x

Photos!

2009-05-04T18:45:00.000+08:00

It's a super tiring day today. I had to wake up at 10am plus when i slept at almost 3 to 4am last night. Sorry,blame it on myself ^^ I just wanted to make you sleep earlier,cant bear to see u sleep so late everyday.Woke up,brushed and dressed up and Off i go to school.=)

We had our first OBC lecture for two hours. OBC is starting to freak me out. Many complicated symbols are starting to appear and i think i can say goodbye to university hahas. NOOO,i am not going give up so easily. After which,we had maths stats and lastly APEL. Today had past quite smoothly despite the fact that i am drained.I wonder if i can survive this semester?
Oh dear! deres lessons at 8am tmr and i still have to work after school T.T
I tink i am going to change my blogskin after i update.Decided to revive my blog again *grins.

I misss him,but i dare not tell him.
For i am afraid that it might be only me who does,
as its onli for one day we din see each other.
I tink we are going to see each other lesser and lesser.T.T
Cus of my studies.
He doesnt say he loves and miss me as often anymore =((
but it's really ok. =))

Photos time!

2009-05-03T21:40:00.000+08:00

Boredomm is killing me nw. So here am i updating my almost dead blog.Guess what i am doing nw? I am trying to transfer my phone datas to my computer.My phone had been giving me headaches.Some of my keypad notes are not working!So i had troubles typing my messages )):

Today,i bought 3 shorts.CHEERS for me^^ Its enough to last for a short period.Now,if a fairy came upon earth to ask me what wish i wanted,all i want is,STOP HAIR FALL. I went to the doctor today.I was totally devastated when he told me there is no stopping to it.The doctor says: that was the side effect from the high fever i had in January and added on that it is going to continue for 3-6mths.After that,new baby hair will grow in place of the lost hair.It is normal and not serious, he added.But guys,how are u going to imagine that this is happening to a girl.A girl who is only 17teen and she cant do anyting to stop it.Thou it is said that is not serious,have u ever imagine it has to contd and never knowing when it stop.Oh gosh,what am i to do in this period? Wear a cap? I wont want people to say anyting T.T Can anyone tell me to what extend it will fall? So unpredictable and scary.Okay,enough craps on this topic.

It's time to be serious.Shall work hard for my studies from nxt week.Woots~

Upload some pics to lighten my spirits^^ There's only two which i got from viens livejournal.Shall upload more when i get it from her :))

Enjoy!

2009-04-18T03:24:00.000+08:00

It's time for some updates!^^Dead for sme time. Let me summarise dis 3daes of orientation shortly in one post.
Day one: we didnt know everyone at first.Did some icebreaking games and intro games,as well as some water games which got my socks wet.AWWful~

Day two:Awesome day. Morning we had our SL workshp which is the boring part.Thereafter comes the fun part.OVERNITE!We did mass dance which is super duper fun. Played station games.I was being carried over when we were playing the spider web game as i was lightest.What scary feeling >< . My favourite was the maze made by kiragi(our own maze).FUN!

Today is the last day of my orientation.Despite the fact that i was really tired, I want to give myself around of applause for being able to stay up to 3.27am in the dawn hahas. Well, as i jus said,today is the last day of orientation. In actual fact today wasnt as fun as it was supposed to be in the past few days.All we did today was suntanning in bedok resevoir cheering for dragonboat team which is not our problem to be at all =.= I hope i did turn abit tan.They are really clever to give everyting to us at the end of everyting.Towards the end, they gif out the awards for AS. YAY! we won sth(thou i didn noe wad is it).Lastly,i got freaked out as well. We were paying attention to sth when someone has an asthyma attack. Oh gosh,it's scary and delayed our dismissal awhile.I feel quite disappointed in my ownself yea? I din get to noe my classmates very well accept one or two T.T Nvm, there's still three years to go ^^ How can i forget? Thanks crystella and anna! A3 is the best.

I got my timetable too! WHEETS~ First week is slacking week. Second week onwards is going to be real tough.But i tink i can still handle well i tink.My onli fear is not to be able to see him.Okay,after dis i tinkin i will drop dead on my bed like a dead log. Tomorrow is going to be a last round of meeting wif him before school reopens! I am gonna treasure tomorrow hahas!=)Me and him hahas.SUn meeting up with my dear friends.hahas

Heres kiragis song:
You have your biz park,we have our Itaz.
you make aeroplanes,we have all the brains.
You do programming,we love experimenting.
You tink you can draw,OI OI! No point you cant score! Hey!~

2009-03-21T23:08:00.000+08:00

All is well today til u said dat. When i heard u said dat u wanted to accompany her out for de foto shoot tmr,my heart skip a beat.Not because i dont trust u,nor m i angry bout dat matter. I am feeling very unsafe and afraid.Well, how can a girl stand her boyfriend goin out wif another girl alone? I guess no. I was in a dilemma.If i opened my mouth to ask u nt to go,isnt dat v bad of me too? T.T

You nvr noe how i feel inside hahas.So many fears inside. isnt it foolish of me? I hate tis kind of me. I never knew dere would be dis kind of feelings til todae. Its bad. My mood has became as dark as it can be now. He doesnt noes hahas. 5daes more to 1 mth anniversary.

Today was quite a bleakful day. Watched 爱就宅一起 and went on to watch THE MIDNITE MEAT TRAIN,so gore x.x Going to create a livejournal account soon and its soon goodbye to dis blog.
Gonna pick up my mood again.
*smiles

2009-03-14T23:49:00.000+08:00

10 mins more to my birthdae and i jus had a tiff wif my mum. What a good way to start my 17th year old journey. Thinking of sme ways to vent my anger on. omg,i hate tis.

I had a feeling i m goin to become bald soon.Today, i jus came out fr my bathroom getting all agitated.I AM HAVING A BAD HAIR FALL >.< The more i comb my hair,the more hair it falls off.Whats worse is that i had imagined dat i would be bald fr combing and pullin lik it happens in horror movies. So scary to tink.Hahas.i tink i have to do sth abt my hair.Mayb yunan hair care wld help? ^^ P.S my tiff has sth to do wif tis matter.

However,i feel dat i had accomplished sth today. I had planned my day.First,cooked cup noodles to eat.After which,Watched ToGetHer(its nice).Went off to my psp and lastly,right here i am. Planning to read twilight ltr on.

Woots!!!! And lastly, HAPPI BDAE TO ME!! Its 12.03 =) Still a cold war wif my mum =.=

I really miss him alot too.Thou its onli one day T.T Hope to c him tmr. I love him hahas.

2008-12-14T22:59:00.000+08:00

How sld i start today's entry? let me tink....
Life is realli so meaningless nowdays since i worked =.= It's lik:work>bath>slp>work again. Even if its my rest day,I either watch tv at hme or hang out wif friends at times.Such a routine life T.T Only 5days of work its lik 1 mth.lols.Okay,i would lik to grumble abit bout my job.I find dat my job is veri bo hua lor.If nvr reach da min sales target stil mus minus $5 T.T Where can lik dis de.No ppl come in to shp aso cnt blame us one ma.We aso not doing sales promoter.Feel so xin tong dat i haf to bai bai stand for 1 hr x.x Last few days have been minuing $5 but luckily nw being reduced to nil. =) Mus jia you to win bak my $5 ^^ Actualli intend to quit,but i feel i mus be more responsible.It's so unfair to the other staffs if i were to quite at tis time near christmas.Enough abt unhappi stuffs.SO glad dat i m getting my pay dis 15th.=)Stil many million thanks to you who made de effort to accompany me home everydae ^^
Met hui min today.She is such a cute girl.Today,i keyed the wrong amt in de cashier T.T

Hais...Random thoughts flash pass my mind today.I realli tink i haf few friends.But i realli hope i can keep in contact wif my friends.Dun realli wan to lose my friends =).Yay tmr's my off day!!!

2008-12-12T00:27:00.000+08:00

Haven been blogging dis few daes. Realli tired after work.Finalli,its my off dae tmr!!! yay.so happi =) Hais..nw i realli understand how working feels.One word tired.but i m stil quite happy though.=) gained new experience.but one ting i m not happi is my salary has to minus $5 if i dun reach de min target.If i count,one dae $5,1wk would be $25.How not worth it de lor x.x sld be quittin on de 15th.what matters most is de experience =)

First day at work(met yan qing):veri blur at work. Not familar at where tings are put.2nd dae(kellysel):stil blur.3rd dae(at white sands,met mimi):new surrounding,not familar.got to mop,sweep and cut price tag & got scolded. lols. Oh ya..met johnathon wong too.Stil as humourous s ever.lols. After 3 daes of work,i tink i m not cut out to be a promoter.hahas. The customers are hard to serve.

But i m stil happi though cus i haf you to accompany home hahas.Thanks!=)

Had a terrible experience dat realli freaked mi out.Shall not write bout it as it takes abt one page long. Okays..feeling realli drained out nw,but i dun feel lik sleeping at all. Wait for me..sushi.Looking forward to tmrs sushi makin session wif vien although tired.x.x

2008-12-07T23:44:00.000+08:00

11.44pm in the nite....

Feeling damn moody and feeling sick.
Feel lik hitting ppl up.
Mood swing( all mus b due to symtoms).
Whole bodi aching & stomach cramp.
Bored wif nothing to do.
Fed up.
Angry .
Cnt control my feeling sick n emo.
Crave for chocolates.

All my feelings of today. I ate a 大餐at a seafood restaurant today. However,not too mux of satisfaction due to all symtoms of ______*

2008-12-06T20:26:00.000+08:00

Worried,nervous,fear,elated,excited.Tat's all dat i could describe abt my feelings rite now x.x 2 daes left to job.lol. Todae when i was at tm,i went into mini bits to take a look of how ppl served.When i entered,a sales girl greeted mii.Salesgirl: "hello,welcome to mini bits!looking for a gift or for yourself?"Me:for myself.salesgirl(smiling):feel free to take a look around.New necklaces which haf picture of boy boy girl girl here.Anything u lik? me:not yet.Lastly i sneaked off without de salesgirl noticing.=.= I wonder do i haf to do tis as well? haha.

Spent over $5o++ for dis job.haven started working alr spending money.Nvm,i will earn it bak wen i get my pay. =) Bought 3 black shirts.I tried on my sales outfit todae.wow,i look realli lik an sales assistant.It's jus tat i haf a query.why does all salesperson wear black!?so funny,mayb its more elegant.haha..i aso cut my frindge todae,which make me look younger abt 10years.=)shall stop crappin on abt my dae's job.Hope things go smoothly.=)

2008-12-06T00:43:00.000+08:00

Yay! Today i finally found a job as a sales assistant in an accessories shop.hahax.after abt 1mth of job hunting.So happy.=)I tot i had no chance anymore.Surprised O.O Countin the number of interviews:Accessories sales assistant,munch service crew,robinsons sales associates,jap restaurant waitress,nail promoter,Data entry position. Finally,i found one. ^^ Its realli a gd opportunity.Only four daes per wk rotating shifts at novena & white sands.But i have a feeeling of fear.I am afraid dat i could not do it well.Can a person hu is lik dis in de past take it up?I wonder.But wad can i do? i could only accept teh job n treat it as a training! yes..dis would be a training..hehex =) Jia yous.I am alr imagining myself serving customers hahax.nervous.

Todae i finalli saw de realistic side of people.How realistic ppl can be sia.>< Today wen to agency to register for jobs.When we go in the lift,something make my heart boil fr head to toe.An office lady had entered de lift.Out of the corner of my eyes,I saw dat she was smiling to herself!!!! I know dat our outfit is nt as elegant as yours,but you dun haf to laugh our guts out rite? If i haf the chance,i would lik to tell u dat......dun ever look down on ppl.This goes to de lady hu smile sarcastically at us at the toilet.Anywaes,our outfits are okay in my opinion.^^

Now i haf to tink of wad to buy for the job.what to buy:
Hair clip,black shoes,black shirt,makeups.yea,i tink dats all.

2008-12-04T19:48:00.000+08:00

Today is another disappointing day. Vien & i wen to a nail product company for the position of nail promoter. I was anticipating dat the interviewer would employ us, but she asked us to fill up a form and waait for their call. And wad does dis means? It means that the chance of bein employed is 0.000002%. x.x The interviewer asked us whether we heard of dis brand o.p.i. vien n i were stun for words,and i answered yes which was lik "okay,i nvr heard of dis before." =.=

After tat, my mum,vien n i went to had our lunch at food junction.hahax.Guess what? I did two things todae which made me happy. =) I finally ordered my contact lens n....had my brows trimmed!!!! Yea..so happy.^^ I m sooo excited to try on my new lens nxt weds.But saddening, my eyesight had increased fr 250 -350.OMG! it mus b fr all the time i spent on com. >< soon =")hahax.met peijuan n zhenci todae.its lik soo long nvr c dem le.hope to gather 2gether on x'mas.^^ Hope to make chocolates on x'mas.hehex">

$10 voucher to buy to white mocha!! =)

2008-12-02T16:25:00.000+08:00

Phews. After one week of selecting blogskins and adjusting settings,my blog finally has been completed. I swear i m goin to continue blogging due to so much efforts i put in. x.x.After my o levels, life seems to be completely meaningless den it was before the O's T.T. But i have been thinkin alot since after de O's. Throughout sec 3-4 life, i had been livin in hell. I had been having thoughts that i could not control at all which made my life miserable.Friends seems to leave me,cant seem to communicate etc.Or am i having depression? I dunno. =) The thoughts just seems to come & go ,and ya noe what? I just cant seem to control it at all. It's not anyone's fault. Sometimes i realli wonder why had i become lik dis? At times, i would tink,am i insane? Am i normal?Life is really unhappy,but i dun wan ppl to noe wad i m feeling. Many people thinks that I am alright as all this while i have been suspressing it in my heart.puting a smile on my face. >.<

Now, sec 4 life is over & i have been thinking things over. I am not goin to lead the life in sec 3-4 again.No matter how difficult teh path is, i will stil continue walking,with the thinking that i wan to lead a happi teenage life. Thoughts which couldnt be controlled stil continue be etched in my mind,but ii m trying my best. No matter how hard it takes.As i wrote this entry,all my feelings of sour n bitter all came bak.Okok. i m goin to stop,although i feel i have not written enough to express my feelings in my sec life.

The fear of the future continues to haunt me.♥
The fear of my past mistakes and unhappiness.♥

2008-11-22T22:56:00.000+08:00

Its been a long time ever since i had update my blog.From today, i wil try to be active in my blog.okays..i will make my entry short and simple today.It's been another disappointing day again. In the morning, Vivien n i went to haagen-das to enquire whether dey stil require ppl in their outlet. As expected, de result is a no...Hais, jobs are realli hard to find nowadays. T.T However, we got a nice ice cream fr haagen-das at $6.50 which is lik so ex lar!haha..hope tat i can find a job by next week.Vivien and i were v annoyed at how difficult it is to find a job. hais... Dis whole week is realli a v tiring week. Everyday is busy dae for me. By the way,hot shot is realli nice. x.x lols. Below are some fotos fr prom nite which i got fr michelle's blog.tks michelle. =)

flu bug has found mii

2007-07-14T13:07:00.000+08:00

Sianz.Down with a flu and cough todae! And my head hurts alrites. Tis year realli doesn't seem to go smoothly for mii. ALwaes gettin a tummy upset n falling sick. How i wish i haf a person hu i can pass my sickness to. ok lar, i admit i m veri bad but fallin sick isnt a veri fun ting.

Todae passes by so slowly. Spent my time at home burrying myself in books. Tmr is homenursing exam, haven started revising yet. I tink i cnt hang on any longer. Nxt week 5 tests, E maths, A maths, Physics,POA and chemistry. somemore i could not catch up with my work . I wonder how could i manage to handle it. Sooner or later, i m goin to break apart with so many stress in my head.

Things realli isnt goin fine. Having flu, cough, headache and tummy upset. So many tests are coming up n i could not catch up with my work. But there are still things which r goin rather fine.
Not telling about it.

I realli must buck up. I couldnt afford to break down and fall apart again. No more repeatin of my past. Put aside all my fan nao n jia you.

I can make it!!! Wan sui to the first steps i made.

Tummy upset todae!

2007-07-07T22:40:00.000+08:00

I cnt believe that i did such a crazy thing in my life todae. In the afternoon, my mum n i met up with my aunt and grandma for lunch. My aunt and grandma were tokin and suddenly she mention someting about my eyebrow. "Wa lao! ur eyebrow veri thick leh." in chinese. And ya noe what? she offered to gif mii a trim but i shook my head hardly . She said "aiya, onli trim abit onli la, it wont hurt wan la". I wonder how she could sae that out of her mouth so easily . I decided to gif it a try after all. After it is done, i looked into the mirror. Its such a different mii. Well,it turned out to look alright although i could not get use to it. She lied to mii. It hurts so much!!! It stil hurts right now alrites.Well, i kept complaining to my mum whether it is weird, i look like a young ah soh haha.

I wonder what food have i taken todae which makes me have a diarherrea. It has been goin on and off for a few daes. I hate my stomach so much and I am emotional todae. I wonder if it is the effect after tummyache. I Dont feel lik doin any homework todae at all, but what choice do i haf? I missed 2 daes of lessons and i dont tink i can keep up with my work any longer sooner or later. I think i nid help..